WI #25 - Owning up and moving on

Wow.. it's been two weeks since I've posted. And just like 99.9% of other people who stop posting for a while, it's because I've been off track and just busy in general. It's been easier to just avoid checking in here and then actually pick myself up and continue on my journey. But today I'm here and I'm going to update all my numbers, as much as it may hurt. But being honest with myself and just putting it all up here is going to be a huge motivator, I'm sure.

Today I weighed in at 224.8lbs. I think that's up nearly 4lbs since I last weighed in 2 weeks ago, and up about 6 or so lbs since my lowest weight a few weeks before that. Ouch.

I have done okay with the exercise the last week or so, getting 3 solid workouts last week but the eating... it's been WAY WAY out of control. I ate because I was bored, because there was bad foods in the house, because I was hot, because I was in the kitchen, because the kids didn't finish, because it was my dad's birthday.... all of those horrible reasons and excuses to over eat, I used them. And it makes me sad because I've been working so hard the past 6 months and I thought that I had managed to retrain myself (or at least partially) in the way I deal with food, but evidently not so much. I've managed to leave a month weighing more than I came into it with. I've also managed to make achieving my goals of losing 50lbs by the 15th of July (my bday) and losing my 2nd 10% by the end of July very very difficult, if not totally unobtainable. Which really sucks.

I was supposed to do my measurements last Monday but did them today instead. Thank goodness they at least remained steady!!

4 weeks ago:
223.2 lbs
39" waist
45" hips
43"bust

Today:
224.8 lbs
39" waist
45" hips
43" bust

Total difference this month: 0" and +1.6 lbs
Total difference since start: 22" and 38.8 lbs

Enough with this beating up on myself though. I may have been a bust in the weight loss department this month, but I worked on a few other goals this month that are just as important.

1- I was accepted into SAIT, I've completed my registration, paid my deposit, applied for funding, and received over $2,000 in bursaries and grants.

2- I have taken necessary steps to get my divorce started. July should see a bunch more progress in this area.

Plus I've been able to spend quite a bit of time with M, which makes me very happy. My kids are in love with him and I'm pretty sure my mom is too. I've had to reign her in a little bit because she's practically ready to start planning a wedding LOL. Right now emotionally, I feel happier and more content than I've felt in a long time.

So it's not been all bad! July is a new month and even though I go on vacation to Fernie for a week, starting next Monday, I'm determined that this will be a great month for weight loss. I'm going to spend some time thinking about my goals for the next few months and post those tomorrow.

Anyways, I'm back!

WI #23 and Healthy You Check In

Blaaaaah. Not feeling very motivated this week. In fact, I feel gross, bloated and FULL from all the crap I've eaten the last few days. Gross. And the scale shows it - I'm up 2.2lbs. No surprise there. Not exactly sure where my motivation went but I'm pretty sure that it goes hand in hand with no working out. And the fact that I haven't gotten in a workout in 3 weeks is pretty pitiful.

That said, I'm trying very hard not to let myself get totally down about this... tomorrow is a new day and I'm more than ready to get back on the wagon. I've got an intense workout planned for tomorrow morning and good food stocked in the fridge. I have downloaded a bunch of new tunes and I'm looking forward to getting back into routine.... for a few days anyhow. Thursday the girls and I head back up north to visit M... I've got to find a way to stay on track (or at least relatively so) while I'm up there. And to get some exercise in as well. We can always do walks and M mentioned wanting to take me golfing... not that that is extremely strenuous cardio oranything but better than nothing. Any tips? How do you stay OP while away from home????

Now I'll do my pitiful update on my June goals..

As far as June's goals go...
1- Lose 8lbs by June 30 I'm at 2.2/8
2- Get 1000 cardio minutes I'm still at 0...
3- Try again for 3 runs a week HA! None last week...

Yah.. pretty sad. But I can turn it around. I was THISCLOSE to getting some new 45lb bling last week but I'm a little further away now.. I need to stay focused in order to reach my goal of 50 lbs gone by my birthday (July 15). Crap! That's under a month!! And 7.4 lbs to go... and a long weekend and weeklong vacation in there too. Ok.. breath.. I can do this! Please kick my butt and help me stay focused!! Any tips to stay OP while I'm away???

Healthy You Check In

I thought I'd get this done a little early this week :)

I am so glad to actually be healthy this week! The flu/stomach bug that attached itself to me last week was absolutely brutal and Sunday was the first day in nearly a week that I finally felt "normal" and was able to eat normal food without it sending my stomach into distress. So now that I'm finally getting my head above water this week, I'm realizing holy moly! It's already the 9th of June! This month is flying by! But the last few weeks have been great on the weight loss front but especially on the personal front. I've been able to spend lots of time with my man... which is awesome because he lives 6 hours away. He's down here this week and then I'll go back up to his place next Thursday. My girls absolutely adore him and he them so that makes everything even better. I am just trying to soak up as much time as possible with him this summer because (drumroll please!!) I got accepted into school for this fall!! I had applied to several different programs and was waitlisted on all of them but was just accepted into my first choice last week. Very excited about it!

Things on the diet and exercise front could definitely improve though... even though I've managed to pull out some decent losses, I know it won't last if I don't get back on it. It's not that my motivation is lacking, it's more just a time thing. I really need to work on this this week and find ways to exercise, even if M is here or if I am up at his place. As far as food goes, I haven't tracked either and have made decent choices, definetly small serving sizes, especially of foods that may not be the best choices.

As far as June's goals go...
1- Lose 8lbs by June 30 I'm at 4.4/8
2- Get 1000 cardio minutes I'm still at 0... may need to adjust this
3- Try again for 3 runs a week I didn't run in the last week because I was sick... this week? Hopefully at least two

Weigh in #22

After missing last weeks WI, I'm happy to say that I'm down 4.4lbs in the last two weeks... very pleased actually considering I haven't tracked and haven't exercised in nearly two weeks. I'm finally feeling healthy again and look forward to earning some APs but my man decided to come for a visit for a few days (yaaaaaay!!) so of course that throws my schedule way out of wack. I'm not complaining though.

I'll write a better post tomorrow, I promise. And I'm so sorry I've been slacking on the blogging and commenting!! I read a bunch last week while I was sick but wasn't so good at leaving comments. Oh well - life happens :)

The best part of being sick...

is all the crazy weight you lose!! I'm seeing numbers on the scale that I wouldn't have expected to see for at least a month. Of course once I'm finally able to hold down more fluid and actually eat something, the number will go up but I'm sure getting a kick out of seeing numbers in the two-teens. And my feet! I think I've lost weight in my feet. Is that crazy? They just look... well, more bony. LOL.. can't wait to start feeling better and being able to go workout - it's been over a week!

Healthy You Check In

Not a whole lot to update this week as I was out of town from last Thursday until last night (had an amazing time with my boy though!!) and I seem to have developed a lovely flu in the last 24 hours. Not fun!! So, I missed my weekly weigh in yesterday and this morning the scale showed me down at 219 but I am so dehydrated that I'm sure that's not all that accurate. I think I'll just wait until next Monday to record an official weight. And pray that this horrible bug passes quickly!!

Final update on May goals:
1- At the beginning of April I set the goal of losing 10 lbs by Mother's Day. I did it, actually 10.8/10
2- Run 5K on Mother's Day without stopping. Did it!
3- Lose 5 lbs by May 21 (that's the day I'm going to see M) I ended up at 5.8/5!!
4- Lose 8 lbs by June 2. Since I don't have an official weight this week, I'm not 100% positive how this went.. but seeing as I was at 7.8/8 last week, I'm going to call it a success.
5- Get 1200 minutes of cardio this month. 877 UGH not so good! I've missed several workouts this month but I can say that although my minutes aren't quite up to par, the intensity of my workouts has definitely improved.
6- Run 3 times a week. Only twice last week.. seems to be a bad pattern

New Goals for June:
1- Lose 8lbs by June 30
2- Get 1000 cardio minutes
3- Try again for 3 runs a week

That's all I can think of for now... hope you all have a great week!