Healthy You Check In, Weigh in and BIG NEWS!!

Okay, just can't contain it.. I'll get the big news out of the way first. Check this out!!



Yep, it's official! Mike has asked me to marry him at least 5 times in the last few months but yesterday he finally did it up right with a ring and all :) I'm so so so so happy!! Unfortunately, I still have no pics of us together as he gave it to me in the car leaving the West Edmonton Mall parking lot (real romantic, I know) and the only witness was my 2 year old daughter. But hey, at least he has good taste in rings!

Anyways, after being away all weekend (we just got home late last night), I wasn't sure how the weigh in would go as I was staying at Mike's parent's house and not in control of the food, etc. BUT I'm down 5 lbs so I must have made some good choices (and I think more importantly, had good portion control and very little snacking). Only two more pounds until I'm at virgin weight!! LOL

I had originally planned to get in a great workout today as I have no classes but the desire to trek all the way down to school just for a work out has sort of dwindled. I have to unpack, do laundry and just do some overall catch up after being away the last 4 days and having a busy week of exams last week. But tomorrow, I promise, will be a good workout day.

Hope you all have a great week!!

Healthy You Check In & Weigh In

I had to cross my fingers as I stepped on the scale today and fortunately, everything turned out okay. After my big loss last week (5lbs), I knew it would be harder to have a good loss this week, plus the fact that I was at a wedding all weekend and totally not in control of what I was able to eat as we were out in the middle of no where. I managed to stay the same so I am happy with that.

The wedding was awesome fun though, after all, I was there with my boyfriend and child-free (for the first time ever!!) so how could it not be fun?? LOL. Tons of driving though - I think it was about 17 hours on the road between Friday afternoon and Sunday night UGH. My lower back is still sore from sitting so much. But all in all, not one complaint. And the kids faired just fine without me, though Grandma is still a little tired.

And what is it about weddings that make you start planning your own? LOL Mike has asked me about 5 times now to marry him but not "officially" - meaning, no ring yet. But, we did decide that planning a wedding looks like way too much work (not to mention money) so we're thinking that heading down to somewhere tropical and getting married barefoot on the beach is much more our style. Anyone done that and have any tips? Apparently we're going ring shopping next weekend when he comes down to visit. And yes, that makes me feel very giddy :)

I'm trying really hard to get back on track food-wise today as I really want to meet my goal of losing 6 lbs by the end of the month, which means I need a loss of at least 1lb this week. I heard that the gym at school is totally state of the art and not all that crowded so I really need to find a way to check that out. My goal is to go at least once this week. Baby steps, right?

TGIF!!

I'm soooooo ready the weekend. It's not like it means I get to relax, because quite honestly, this weekend seems to be jam packed full of plans, but it means my poor brain gets to relax a wee bit. I feel absolutely overstuffed... and no, not my tummy for once - overstuffed with information. I am taking 8 classes right now!! Not sure how I am going to be able to remember everything... but I'll have to manage somehow. The majority of my classes are health/medical related but two are computer classes and even though I thought they'd be boring and a PITA, I'm loving them! I got to put a computer back together today. I got to learn how SIMPLE it actually is to replace memory, hard drives, etc. Seriously, those are life skills in today's day and age.

Anyways.. I've been a pretty good girl diet-wise the last couple days. Tonight I did have a few pieces of Domino's thin-crust pizza and one glass of regular coke but I have barely touched my flex points all week so I'm still well within my points for the week. I'm really proud of the fact that I've been really getting in my fruits/veggies and that I'm getting up early enough to make myself a decent breakfast to start my day. I have unfortunately discovered the location of the campus Starbucks and made a stop there the last two mornings. I've had serious cravings for my non-fat Chai Latte... only 3 points though for a tall (plus a serving of dairy) so not really too much damage done, other than to my wallet. I need to stop getting to school so early so I won't have time to go over there before class! LOL

On the relationship front, I did have a little talk with Mike yesterday afternoon. We've both just been so tired lately that by the time we talk at the end of the day, neither of us have a whole lot to say. I get that. I asked him if he really thought he was ready for the girls and I to move up there in February. He told me that basically he feels like he is living and breathing for February to come... that it's something he's been waiting for for such a long time and he can't wait to have us there every day. Then he asked me if that's what I wanted.... I said yes.. but I don't think I convinced him (I admit I didn't say it very convincingly). I said that it was what I wanted but that I was a little scared and that there was stuff I wanted to talk about so that we start out being all on the same page. He agreed that it was a good idea... so that's a start anyways. I'm really really really looking forward to seeing him next weekend. It should be a lot of fun and maybe even a little romantic seeing as it will be just the two of us with no kids around (for the first time ever!!).

Anyways.. guess that's it for now :)

Humph..

To be honest, I'm a little grumpy tonight. I can't exactly pinpoint why but I think that perhaps it's just a little bit of everything.

I had my first quiz today at school. And quiz my butt! It was more of a full on test, marked out of 46 and worth 10% of my final grade. No easy multiple choice questions either.. full on written answers. Ugh. I thought I knew the material inside out but I completely spaced on a few of the questions. I'm hoping the results won't be too bad but I'm a little stressed about it.

And... men. *sigh* I've had a little bit of a not-super-connected feeling to him lately. It's hard.. we live over 500km apart and it's been 2.5 weeks since I've seen him. That's the longest we've gone without seeing eachother and I still won't see him until next Friday. We talk daily but the last few nights when he calls, he's dead tired from working 16 hour days and I'm dead tired from school, etc so the conversations have been filled with a lot of dead air. And that's for sure one of my top five most annoying things. No one's fault really... but for some reason I'm feeling annoyed with him tonight.

Also on the back burner of my mind is that I know he wants me to move up there once I'm done school (in February) and I think I want that as well...... but at the same time, there's a big list of things I feel like we need to talk about still before I'll be totally ready to do that. Because if I pick myself and the girls up and move there, that's it. It means that this is the man I'm spending the rest of my life with. He says there'll be a ring on my finger by next month... we'll see. The thing I think that I'm annoyed with him about is that it feels like he thinks he has me now and so he doesn't have to try anymore. Maybe it's my own fault because at the beginning of our relationship I told him I wasn't into romance.. and I never used to be but I'm finding myself longing for a bit of it right now. Bottom line: we need to talk. He has no idea how I feel and I am one of the worst for communicating so that's something I need to work on NOW. I think I'm going to go to the library and get one of those books like "1001 Questions to Ask Before You Get Married" or something. This talk needs to happen soon... hopefully the weekend when I go see him, though we'll be at the wedding and busy with that.. but soon.

Blah.. okay, I think that's probably the biggest thing that's making me grumpy tonight. I'm also extremely tired today (didn't sleep well last night) so .. well, you know how it goes.

On the weight loss front, I was OP all day (3 days in a row woohoo!). Also haven't bought any fast food, even coffee, this week which is huge for me.

I'm off to bed now.. hopefully a good night's sleep awaits me.

Shiny happy people...

Can you tell I'm a happy girl today? LOL Just LOOK! A little closer.... SEE what M gave me yesterday????? Well, that, amongst many other things would explain the happy (yes, that's crazy goofy happy, not psycho scary freaky) look on my face. (Have you ever noticed how hard it is to take a pic of yourself where you have a half normal looking expression on your face?!? but that's a whole other post LOL). I am not normally a jewellery person, but I may have to make an exception because it seems as though M has every intention of spoiling me. I'm a very lucky girl!!!!

I got back last night from my trip up to Edmonton to see M and the whole thing was just... well, bliss. There was so much makin' out that I felt like a teenager LOL. But I rationalize that by saying that the last time I dated anyone, I WAS a teenager! It was just awesome to spend time with him and just to have him hold me. Oh oh oh oh and a certain "L" word was used. He's been alluding to feeling that word for a while now but I've always hushed him and told him not to say it. I've told him that it's too soon for that, he's crazy, he's blind, etc etc. But he said it and I didn't stop him. Actually, it felt really nice to hear it. Really. Nice. I feel like I'm walking on clouds... I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

And, to top off my happy news, I totally met my goal of losing 5 lbs by yesterday. In fact, I lost closer to 6. Hopefully it all stays off (and then some) until my official WI on Monday!

Healthy You Check In

Woo! I love Tuesdays and giving a little update and taking the time to check in on all of you!

Not a whole heck of a lot to report here.. I had a loss this week, (-1.0lb) but it wasn't quite as much as I was hoping for. I was feeling extremely munchy yesterday and I have a feeling that TOM is around the corner. I really should keep better track of when it's expected to arrive but I've never been good at that. I really can't wait until next Monday when I should finally be out of the 230s!

When I posted the other day about M being overweight, I've gotten a few comments about being in a relationship with an overweight man. I agree with what Hanlie said in that when she was with a fat guy, she got fat too... and this happened to me also with my ex (who was not super fat but overweight and out of shape). I have never been thin but I was in awesome shape when I first met my ex. I still weighed approx. 200lbs but I had just finished a summer working as a landscaper so I was buff! LOL I think I put on at least 20-30 lbs that first year (and so did he!).. and well, it just went from there. I would never want that to happen again! I've worked too hard and still have a long ways to go and can't get back into those old habits. But that said, I've always been attracted to bigger guys.. probably because they made me feel small and safe and secure. M is probably bigger than I would normally be attracted to... but his personality is awesome. Anyways... can you tell this whole issue has been spinning around in my head the last few days?

Here's an update on my goals:

• Hit 10% goal by April 7 DONE!
  
• Lose 10 pounds by Mother's Day (May 11) 8.0/10
  
• Get in 3 C25K workouts each week Not doing C25K anymore.. I ran twice last week and then my knee was sore so I did BOSU instead
  
• Do 1100 minutes of cardio I'm at 850 right now so I should make it!
  

I can't wait until next week to do measurements!! Have a good week everyone!!

Date Update

I know you guys have all been on pins and needles waiting for this update LOL :)

Well, we got an enormous amount of snow (yes, SNOW) the last few days so I was extremely worried about the drive I had to make Saturday morning to meet M. I started out.. got about 30 minutes away and then decided NO WAY can I make this drive. I was passing car after car in the ditch and while I felt like I could probably make it to Drumheller, I was more worried about the drive home later that night. So, I called M and he offered to come all the way to Calgary (cuz he's sweet like that). We met at the mall and we had lunch and just hung out... I had the little ones with me (because remember, we were originally supposed to go to the Dinosaur museum). Things were very comfortable, just like they had been on the phone. After a while, we brought the little ones back home so my mom could babysit. Yep, he even met both of my parents already. We went to a late afternoon movie and dinner afterwards. Honestly, it was a great day... and I think that things worked out for the best with the changing of plans. There was some really nice hand holding, cuddling at the movie and quite a few little kisses snuck in there. It was really... well, nice.

So how do I feel now? Well, this is something that I feel really badly even to admit. He was a little heavier in person than in the pics that I had seen of him. That's really not the end of the world because obviously I have weight to lose as well. His style was well... lacking, but again, not a huge deal because he knows he has no style LOL and it's nothing a few shopping trips couldn't fix. And really, how often is it that you find someone who's personality so completely meshes with yours? We have so many things in common that it's almost freaky. Our beliefs and values are very much alligned.

In the truck just before he dropped me off at home, he asked me if I was his girlfriend. I kind of giggled when he asked because it sounded a little junior high school-ish but sweet at the same time. I said yes.

I used to be so attracted to the "bad" boy. M is definitely so not. He is so "good" that I've found myself questioning if he is for real. I'm feeling a little bit of an internal struggle within myself.... actually I dumped my first boyfriend (who was also a "good" boy) because he was too nice. Why would I possibly want to be with someone who was not nice? I don't know... and I realize that I'm jumping a little ahead of myself and should just be taking this one thing at a time and seeing what happens. M has made it very clear that what he's looking for is for a good woman to marry, basically just to love and look after. He wants a couple kids, the minivan, the camping family vacations, the picket fence... you get the picture. That's what I want too... at some point.

(I wrote all of the above last night and am finishing this Monday morning)

To be truthful, I really don't know how I feel at the moment. Nice is good... but I want more than that. I'm feeling a little shallow because what if he had been 50 lbs thinner? Would I feel differently then? I just don't know. And, I guess I don't really need to know right now. We'll see what happens.

Weigh in #13

I thought the number 13 wasn't supposed to be very lucky but this week, it seems the scale likes me. I am down 5.6 lbs!!!!!!!! I saw the numbers jump down when I peeked a few days ago but honestly, didn't expect them to stick. Not only did I pass my 10% but I am also down more than 31 lbs total now. Wow. Just wow. I think I'll probably spend the rest of the day doing a bit of a happy dance! But not only because of the weight loss... my boy just called me from work... said he couldn't stop thinking of me. It was just a quick call but made my day because it made me totally realize just how mutual the feelings are. It's all sort of crazy but really nice at the same time.

Okay, okay.. I suppose I owe it to you all now to give you a little more info about him now. I've been asked to write a mini post about the whole thing so here it goes. First of all, let's call him M. A few weeks ago, on a complete whim, I signed up for one of those match making sites. I wasn't really looking for anything in particular.. not even sure if I actually wanted to date anyone (I haven't since I separated nearly two years ago). But I thought I'd see what was out there. So I wrote my profile, not trying to impress anyone. Just putting it all out there - the real me. I sifted through the matches I was sent.. deleting most of them based on physical appearance. LOL, yep, call me shallow or superficial but if you can't actually see yourself with the guy, what's the point? So there was this one guy whose pic appealed to me. He lives about 5 or so hours from here, which I figured was a good thing because then there is less pressure to actually meet (remember, I wasn't really serious about this). I sent him questions and his responses intrigued me. We communicated back and forth and nearly everything matched. I gave him my email addy and we spent three days writing huge emails 3-4 times a day. Finally, we talked on the phone. And the next night, and the next night. And several more times since then. We've decided to meet up on Saturday the 19th. So yes, it's crazy, I've never met him but really have a huge crush on him already. But before you get all worried about me, I'm taking it very slow... and whether anything comes of it or not, it's been very fun to have feelings like this again and to feel like someone is into you. And hey, the fact that he has a really great smile, makes really good money, loves kids (and wants more), is very financially responsible (he owns a house, rents it out and is buying another - all this with no debt), has a really great family from the sounds of it - help too. Wish me luck!!!

Oh, and if any of you were readers from the very beginning of my blog where I posted about going to the psychic, I recently re-read the stuff she wrote down for me and so much of it has come true. It's scary really how accurate she's been. And one intriguing thing that she wrote that I happened to forget was that I would find love in March/April. So, one never knows.... :)