Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Healthy You Check In

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Like my new bling? I'm really quite fond of it myself :)

Things seem to be going quite well on both the exercise and eating fronts lately and finally I had a loss that shows it (3.8lbs). What can I say? Love does a body good! ;)

Now that I'm down 40 lbs, the compliments have been rolling in from people around me and while they are of course lovely to hear, I still find myself doubting what they are saying. Yes, I do feel MUCH better than I did 40 lbs heavier. But when I look in the mirror, I really don't see the difference. Ugh! I had read in other blogs about people feeling this way but I never thought it would happen to me. I mean yes, I feel that my thighs and butt are way more firm and I've really just noticed the last few weeks how my tummy feels smaller. But I look in the mirror and what I see is still very unappealing. And it doesn't seem to look any different than it did 5 months ago. But it must!! I don't know why our minds do this to us but it's making me understand (just a little bit) how the mind of an anorexic works. If I went by how I saw myself in the mirror, do you think I'd ever think I was thin enough or firm enough? I really don't know. My clothes tell me I'm smaller, my measurements tell me I'm smaller, my scale tells me I'm lighter... so why don't I see it? I think maybe it's time to do another full length pic of myself to compare to my first one. I've been dreading doing that but I think it's time.

On another note, here's the last update on my May goals:
1- At the beginning of April I set the goal of losing 10 lbs by Mother's Day. I did it, actually 10.8/10
2- Run 5K on Mother's Day without stopping. Did it!
3- Lose 5 lbs by May 21 (that's the day I'm going to see M) I ended up at 5.8/5!!
4- Lose 8 lbs by June 2. 7.8/8
5- Get 1200 minutes of cardio this month. 817 so far.. not quite sure if I'm going to reach this one. I'm out of town starting Thursday and only have one workout left before I go.
6- Run 3 times a week. Only twice last week.. missed Thursday's run because I was out of town


Cammy said...

Wow. I want to "go out of town" too. :)

Pretty bling, Holly, and so well-deserved!

40 by 40 said...

I am looking longingly at your bling. Congratulations on it and ALL of your accomplishments!!!

Fergie said...

Nice. Way to go. 40lbs gone - that's the weight of my 4 year old - you've lost a whole little person.


Heather said...

hooray!!! you celebrate that bling because that is quite an accomplishment.

I know how you feel because I am one of those people who doesnt "see" the progress. I think its normal though. you would think that after all this, we would be happy to be down what we are, but it doesnt always work like that. but trust in what people say because they can see you more than you can see yourself sometimes. eventually it will all catch up.

Mama Bear June said...

Wow, that is awesome! Congrats on 40 pounds gone. You are doing a great job, celebrate the victories!
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Hanlie said...

Woohoo! You are doing so well! Believe it, baby!

Enjoy your visit!

Shirls said...

I read a study that says it takes up to 2 years for your minds imagine of yourself to catch up to the physical you. Personally I found this to be very much true. It will happen one day it will just hit you that you've really done something amazing and you will see it and it will be a shock, and if your like me you'll start weeping in a wal-mart change room when the skirt you never thought, ever would, fits. It's a great moment in life and your so incredibly lucky because its on its way for you. enjoy

Manuela said...

Congrats on meeting so many of your goals!

Anonymous said...

Awesome, 40lbs! Your new Bling looks lovely! It's time to do that side by side photo. I'm sure you'll be able to see the difference you've made in your life!

Girl with a Problem said...

Way to go on meeting those goals! You are a super hero!

I can tell just from the photo of your face (in you stunning new necklace - congrats for all that too) that you have lost weight.

When I look in the mirror (which I could never even do before) I still see a lot (70 lbs) that needs to go - but I just try to focus on how much less of me there is now than then and how exciting it is to be shrinking bit by bit. As long as I'm getting smaller, I'll take what I can get.

You have done an amazing job. You should be very, very proud of yourself. You are an inspiration.

Selma said...

Congrats! on 40 pounds. That is so great!

My theory about why we can't see the difference in ourselves is because we haven't chosen to fully love ourselves unconditionally no matter how big or little we are.

Wallowgirl said...

You are doing so great! Just keep going! Congrats on achieving your goals!

Sunny Days said...

GREAT JOB! I hope to be there someday in the near future. KEEP IT UP!

Anonymous said...

Well done on losing 40 lbs so far. I'm not sure how much weight we have to lose for our perceptions of ourselves to change.

When I saw your weight ticker I misread it at first, I thought you were aiming to weigh 105 lbs -- I thought you were one of those size zero wannabes (!!!) .... I have realised my mistake now and it's 105 lbs you are aiming to lose -- well you are over a third of the way having lost 40 lbs then!

Best wishes,