Sunday, March 16, 2008

Weekend Schmeekend

Well, I've pretty much sucked this weekend. Didn't count pounts, didn't get to work out (I tried yesterday but baby K wouldn't stop crying in babysitting at the Y so they came and got me after 10 min.), ate a few too many easter cookies and a bunch of pasta tonight. Oh, and a slice of Grandma's famous lemon merigue pie this afternoon. Ugh. So now tonight I feel gross. My stomach actually hurts. I wonder if it's truly from the bad food though or if it is more of a mental thing? It doesn't really matter... all I know is that I'm thrilled that tomorrow is Monday and first thing in the morning I'll be sweating it out at the Y and back on track with eating.

The unfortunate thing is that weigh in is also tomorrow... and it's also the day I had as my goal to reach my 10%. Since I'm 99.9% sure that isn't going to happen and I'm mentally preparing myself for a gain, my thoughts have turned to WHY I chose to go off program and to eat like this this weekend. Because yes, it was a choice. Sometime Friday afternoon my thoughts sort of went like this: "I'm so close to losing 25 pounds... hmmm that's pretty good. I've done so well, and I'm sick of Subway, I deserve to have Greek tonight." And then on Saturday it was more like "I ate a decent breakfast and lunch... Dad's making bbq'd hamburgers... it would be so much easier just to eat that than make something else...". Today was more like "I've been screwing up all weekend, I might as well enjoy... Yes, pass me some of that lemon meringue pie!" Blah, well, you get the picture.

I'm also wondering if even just a tiny part of me is battling the ol' self saboutaging attitude. After all, 24 lbs is good, right? I might as well slow down and take my time with this weight loss, right?

NONONONONO! 24 pounds is good, but it's not GOOD ENOUGH. I'm not settling. I'm going all the way baby!

5 comments:

Carolyn said...

I'm sorry it's been a while since I checked over here in your neck of the cyber woods, but I"m happy for you for the successes you've had thus far. This weekend was a bomb for me too dear... don't feel so bad. We have these moments, these times in our lives that keep us back from our goals. It is a bit of a scary prospect really; its' a huge change. I know that one of my biggest fears is losing all the weight, only to put it all back on again over time.
But the difference is your'e aware of what's going on. YOu're so close to your 10%, and you WILL reach it... when is just a triviality. I admire the time goals you set for yourself.
You've done so well, and will continue to do so; trust me. Just remember your success on the treadmill... that's a HUGE NSV!!!

Hanlie said...

You go girl! All the way! I'll be right beside you...

Scale Junkie said...

Great job turning your attitude around!! You can do this!!

Heather said...

hey you never know..it may not be as bad as you think. a lot of itmes we think the scale is going to be WAY up when really its up just a little. you will get there, if not tomorrow, then next time. Im glad you have looked into why you may do this because that will help prevent you from doing it again.

~♥ BetsC ♥~ said...

Hi,

Just remember, the name of your blog has a special meaning, ...It's My Year!

It is "your" year, ...and you deserve to be a happier and healthier person!

So, here's to letting go of the past and to making better choices for a new you this year!

Hugs, BetsC